By Mary Animaux
From her chapbook Turn Around, Don’t Drown
I changed my mind.
Let’s not do this.
Are maybe all I have
To myself anymore
And once you pass
Make of them
What you will
File them into your own system of
I’m going to resent you forever.
See everything wrong
In your mind’s eye
Fill in the blanks with yourself
And it will only make me feel worse next time I see you,
Before you turn the page
Practice the smile you will give
The next time you see me on the street.
Memorize the way your cheeks feel right
There. Now. Like that.
I’m going to know
You saw this.
And I am going to hate you.
Who the fuck are you, anyway?